No matter what God allows to happen, is for a good reason : )
Even though you might feel doubtful or regretful of the things you did to obey God,
always remember that God will reward you in the end : )

Remember:

"He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus." Philippians 1:6 =)

Hope you feel better, you know who you are :) this post is dedicated to you! haha. <3